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October 25 so tired so lost so numbi'm so tired
tired of being who i'm not
tired of doing what i can't
tired of trying to grow up
so tired... tired of this world this society
i can't be who i am who i want
i have a headache.. can't fall asleep
is it just me...
trying to avoid things that might cause problem
thinking not to face it will make it go away
but never realize that..
one day, it will just come back and hit me in the face
nothing really goes away
not until you face it
time don't prove anything
against it only shows powerless
still, too afraid to face anything... alone
i'm not alone but yet i feel lonely
i guess, if the heart's not fulfill
everything else is just meaningless
i don't get you
i don't get myself
i don't get anyone
i don't understand this world
i'm not special but i don't feel i belong to it
living in it.. so hard
so many rules so many standards
freedom is never real
i don't ask for it to be complete
just why can't we break it once in a while..
being young and carefree was wonderful
not so much anymore
if i had to be someone i'm not to fit in
i will
戴起我的笑臉 裝上我的笑容
是如此的公式化
已經完全變成習慣了
習慣到 連自己一個人的時候
都不會表現情緒了
隱藏 過了頭 期待 過了頭
想像 過了頭 現實 過了頭
when the sky falls
who will be right by my side
telling me, everything will be okay
even though we both know.. that's not true
tell me what i want to hear
or
tell me the truth
which will make me feel better
i'm lost
想找人講話 卻開不了口
心揪在一起 身旁的看不到我的複雜
身體的累 i can handle
心裡的累 what do i do
當身心俱疲時 只好麻木自己
享受明天就會忘記的快樂
只求現在的暫時遺忘 遺忘 失敗的自己
happiness is getting harder and harder to find
harder to get harder to keep
doing nothing feel so good also guilty inside
when can i let go of everything
open my mind open my world
find myself somewhere i feel belong
how long will it take
to get out of this misery
so many feelings jam up in my head
my headache is killing me
maybe i just got the cold
for now, i just wanna sleep
have one sweet dream
have a happy ending October 22 用歌詞寫日記-林嘉欣的我不怕我不怕- 林嘉欣 October 17 心情就是好yes 本人的心情 這幾天就是好
當然當然 還是會有不爽的時候
不過 大部分的時間 我都開心
今天上學的路上 從毛毛雨變成中大雨
我超喜歡雨天的 portland很多很多雨
就算只是一個人 走在雨天的街道上
心情很自然的 就豁然了起來 呵呵
就算淋濕了也無所謂
就算褲管濕了也無所謂
就算鞋子濕了也無所謂
就算頭髮濕了也無所謂
即使全身濕了也無關緊要
那一種 清新的感覺 就好像我也接受洗禮一樣
看著雨 聽著雨 感受雨
真是舒服的一件事
下雨 看海 都讓我心曠神怡.. 舒服啊....
那是一種 平常絕對求不到的平靜
在庸庸碌碌 汲汲營營的日子中 這種平靜 實在是需要
當然 我其實應該不會是很忙的
只是 花太多時間在浪費光陰
不過 晚上氣氛真的是很不一樣
所以 總喜歡留到晚上做東西
心態 需要改改了.. 這樣的話 大概也講了快一千萬遍了
這幾天 心情出乎意料的好
不知道 是習慣了寂寞
抑或是 放棄了去逃避 也可能 只是學校變輕鬆了點
只希望 可以漸漸步上軌道
再次擁有 想要突破自己的動力(有..過嗎)
現在班上的人 大部分都好厲害啊
相較之下 看看別人 再看看自己 真是無言..
大家的大家 是大家的創作靈感
我沒有大家 所以就沒有靈感...
不論在台灣 還是美國 都一樣 沒有大家圍繞
該怎麼說呢 認了吧 我就是這樣的人
曾經多想 當個有個性 有特色的人 有自己的style
盲目想要追求 不過 還是沒有找到自己的路
所以還是繼續停留在 乖寶寶世界
做隻井底之蛙
要是能夠快樂 倒也不是什摩壞事
身邊有時會出現 那些複雜的好人
就算是我的朋友 仍然是我踏不進的世界
大概 那樣子 就不是我的style吧...
我應該要覺得滿足嗎
我的年紀 說年輕也不年輕 老也不老
應該還要期待些什麼
那些年少輕狂的事 也沒做過幾件
活在爸媽的保護傘裡的自我保護傘中
也不知道為什麼會這樣 應該也沒什麼不好
只不過 經歷少點吧 生活空白點
瘋狂少一點 單純很多點
心機一個點 天真一大片
若不要知道外面的世界 我現在 應該要很快樂的
會比現在的我 還要快樂吧...
但在一點點 一點點的接觸到這個現實界後
真是被弄得灰頭土臉... 處處碰壁 害得我鼻青臉腫
然後回家 看著鏡子 呆呆的傻笑 想著 又蒙混的過了一天
阿... 對啊 今天又蒙混的過去了...
喝了送到家的hot chocolate
溫暖了身心 心情就好了
渾渾噩噩的過就過了吧...
至少 還活的好好的 不是嗎
October 15 用歌詞寫日記 夏卡毛的罪罪- 夏卡毛 為了別人快樂要在現在這個社會上成功的生存
似乎需要做一些犧牲... 需要虛假
前一陣子 突然發現到.. 連快樂的主控權都沒了
即使生活不如意不開心 還是要為了週遭的人
掛起笑臉
如果因為情緒沒控制好 發了脾氣 氣過之後
責怪自己
自己實在是一個非常慢半拍的人
常常要到事情過了or 已經發生後才會想到要生氣
真是有夠天才的... 然後再跟週遭的人抱怨
很搞不懂自己怎麼會這麼蠢
應該要明白 對不太可能再見到的人 發表自己的不悅
到也不是什麼大罪過
也不知到底是懶的計較 還是自動棄權
舉個例還說說
當初從lax飛回pdx時
被一對越南夫妻擺了一道...
先是被忽略似的霸佔我的位子(fine..)
然後又被不客氣的指派座位(wtf...)
還被莫名其妙的當做這夫妻孩子的親戚(呸!)
最後還覺得有被空中小姐忽視(靠!)
現在想想 還真應該要他媽的生氣
但在當下 卻一點感覺也沒有
或許在座位被搶又被隨意指派座位時 有點不爽
但倒也沒有特去在意 然後就沒在去想了
之後被哥哥接到後 跟他講了之後
他叫說 應該要stand up for urself...
then i started to think...
yeah~ maybe i should....
i mean, they r small ppl..
i can totally take them....hahaha
但我還是什麼都沒有做
因為已經過了 來不及了 只好後悔
幻想如果我有怎樣 結果又會怎樣
有時真是覺得自己遜斃了
一點魄力都沒有 週遭的人 似乎都很有...
然後就會叫我要有主見 有魄力一點
所以其實 我也間接的被控制在他們的魄力下
當然 他們都是好意 我只好怪自己 遜斃了
今天跟我的乾哥哥聊了聊
老實說 也不太記得內容了
我跟他說 我不敢對陌生人發脾氣
所以只好對自己身邊的人吐苦水
他跟我說 這樣 不斷積壓 到最後
就爆發 傷害的 還是自己身邊在乎的人
唉 是啊 我也知道
所以我也盡量控制 不要對身邊的人發脾氣
所以... 見到人 幾乎都可以擺起笑臉
倒也不是說 故意裝沒事
只是就是 自然而然就會這樣了
不用刻意去想 不用刻意去裝
笑容就可以自己跑到我的臉上去
其實 我身邊人很少
所以 只要有人出現 我都會很開心
所以即使前一秒 還在電話上吵架
如果下一秒 人出現在我面前
我還是擺出笑臉 老實說 會不會太假了點....
我也不知道... 以為笑是禮貌也是好事
笑臉迎人 笑口常開 是我遵循的方向...
也不知道到底是好還是不好了...
其實 很多時候
我的腦袋 是空白的 所以才會反應慢半拍吧...
我並沒有腦袋空空 只是就會自然變blank...
所以 很容易就會 忽略到自己的感受
忘記自己的情緒 漠視自己的想法
太自然會想配合別人 活在別人的指控下
總要等要事後 回想時 一個人時
才能理出一點頭緒 但終究永遠來不及...
煩啊 這樣的自己
過於在乎別人眼中的自己 別人的想法
現在的我 已經比以前好一些了
可以比較不在乎 那些無關緊要的人的看法
但還是 無法完全拋棄 即使我對那些人 一點都不重要
討厭死了 這樣的自己
偏偏就是 死性不改 活的不上不下
前進不了 又不可能後退 退回以前的自己
是跟現在差不了多少 但還是不願回去 一點自我都沒有的世界
改變自己 實在是個需要堅定意志還是耐性的工作
不可能馬上見效 也不可能馬上就能辦到
還是不斷督促自己去做 實在是很容易就會想放棄
自以為活的很隨性 才發現其實是很無意識
隨波逐流 船到橋頭自然直的想法
真是非常之被動的代表.. 也就是我的想法....
有時 真的很想尖叫 很想大聲哭
只為求那一點點短暫時的情緒發洩
崩潰 給自己聽
讓自己知道 也會有撐不下去的時候
不想發洩在別人身上 以致身邊的物品間接受傷害
所以 我的物品 特別是電器 老是壞掉... 暴力發洩的產物
管他是laptop or ipod or cell phone.. etc
全無一倖免... 惹我不爽 就被我虐待... 真是可憐
是我太假 還是太傻 還是太簡單
或是只是太中國人思想.. 保守又傳統
如果哪天我能為了我的權利而站起來講話
我就是跨出一大步了吧...
希望在我還不會後悔以前 可以做到這一點
October 10 讓自己好過點最近的自己 老是想的很悲觀
不知道是不是 想太多了 因為一個人
又或是 想用自己的孤獨去引起別人的關心與注意
就像是 那些會自殘的人一樣
用傷害自己 to get people's attention...
i can't believe i'm in that path now.. ha how funny
不敢傷害自己的身體 就朝自己的心理下手
which one will be permanent.. stays forever?
大概是太無聊 有人看自己可憐而引起的同情 也可以自我滿足了
我是不是太過分 利用了別人的關心
我大概也太自私 沒去考慮到嚴重性
我應該也太膽小 所以一直不敢面對
看電視一台詞說
maybe she thinks ingoring the problem is the best way to slove it 結果呢 後果不堪設想
我不知道 我身邊的人看到我這樣的自白
會不會責怪我 厭惡我 排擠我... i deserve them all so sorry...
但如果要自我辯解 我也只能說
孤單寂寞下 產生最醜陋的一面 為了自己的孤寂 挑動別人的憐憫 讓自己好過些
表面上 暫時排解了 心理壓力
事實上 還是一樣空虛 內心世界
或許 有些事情 不是光靠別人 就可以克服的吧
自我的成長 算不算在內?
想寫的永遠太多 能表達的永遠不夠用
改天再接著寫吧..希望這段時間內 學會一些小道理
今天是雙十國慶 姑且不論政治
應該要有很美的煙火 在台灣的高空... October 08 如果有一天如果有一天 我失去了我的幼稚
我想我大概 也會失去快樂的本能吧
成熟的看這樣世界 根本一點都不有趣吧
這個社會 太現實 太殘酷 太無情
一點都不適合我
如果被強迫著長大 而心裡根本沒準備好
還是無法成功的面對這個世界
也無法成功的在這個社會上生存
如果有一天 沒準備好的我
被趕鴨子上架 開始獨自面對這個世界
我想我一定會崩潰吧
或許 現在就是那個如果有一天
或許 現在的我已經開始分裂了
所以 我才會這樣的沮喪吧
所以 才會根本提不起勁面對生活吧
週遭的人 都是大人 都成功的變成大人了
我還是離不開這個天真幼稚的學校
當大家都準備期末考時 我還在悠哉的獨課外讀物
應該說 我不願意離開
還是說 我就是離不開
又或是 我注定留下來
誰知道 我的命是怎樣
我現在 自以為可以過獨立的生活
才發現 孤獨是成熟人才會享受的
人家說 寂寞可以殺死一隻貓.....
而我呢 寂寞到連舉起手的情緒都沒有
我身邊 不是沒有人存在
只是 在家時 都是一個人
整個家 只有死寂的氣息
有時候 真的會很害怕
怕的是 一點生氣都沒有
真的想 養個寵物陪陪我
至少知道 回家時 會有歡迎
到現在 終於明白 當初哥哥的感受
我現在 是比那時的他更糟吧
至少 平常時 他有很多朋友
很晚才會回家 很晚才會覺得孤獨
而我 幾乎隨時隨地 都會覺得孤獨
但還是 覺得很對不起哥哥
現在 正式的跟哥哥 爲當初 說抱歉
to be continue... October 07 RULE No. 1i don't know how many guys r like this
but.. is it just ur nature that.. u don't contact ppl
especially when they r waiting 4 u to show up???
i don't know why these men r like this
and why r or were they in my life??
i have my limits u can't challenge everytime
i could get really mad.. and ..
how can they just give me some shitty excuses
then expect me to forgive them??
i just don't understnad.. and i can't either
how hard is it to tell me u r gonna be late
or u r not even coming??
i was waiting... i am waiting.. i will wait
until u tell me.. when u gonna show up
not show up at all... doesn't matter
it's just rude and wrong
i don't care if u will be late
i don't care if u will not come
i don't care if i have to wait for hours
i don't care if i have to wait in the rain
i don't care if i have to wait til tomorrow
all i care and all i want
All I Really Want.. is just one phone call
even a message just inform me
that i'm not waiting to get my heart broken
i'm not waiting for the unknown, for nothing
i'm not wasting time for nobody, for no one
of course, i won't be asking for this if i can't obey it
i even call b4 the meeting time if i know i will b late
and if i can't make it on time and i can't contact others
i feel very bad and sorry and nervous
i guess guys don't feel this way then..
that's why they can always give me fake smile and say sorry
i don't wanna take this kind of shit all the time
i hate it i seriously hate it i fucking hate it
i'm bad at arguing i just couldn't fight back
once they tell me their lame excuse
and they insist it's true and reasonable
i start to feel like i shouldn't get mad
and after i get mad and yell or cry
they talk back to me
make me feel like it's my fault that i get mad
like it's wrong it's me that ruin the date
how could u how can u face urself
and honestly tell me that you have done nothing wrong??
being late is acceptable
not letting others know is unacceptable
maybe i have nothing to do
maybe i have noplace to go
maybe i have nobody else to be with
it still doesn't give u the rights to ditch me to abandon me
to hurt my feelings to waste my time
how hard is it, i imagine, for guys to follow this rule
and i don't know am i the only one who has the rule
how hard is it to call to contact.. even 4 few seconds
so far, three men have done this hurtful thing to me
everytime i got mad i cried i yelled we argued
and they all peromised it won't happen again
Bullshit!!!!!! it always has and i believe it always will
i guess something just never changes...
i get tired of getting mad about the same thing
tired of arguing for the same reason
over and over and over again
so tired and so sick of it
but too bad guys, the rule is not gonna change
not a chance nada..... will never happen...
October 04 psychoi don't know what's going on w/ me
it's only the second week of the school
and i already feel...sick.. of everything
i don't know if it's because of this feeling
i had... like the most disturbing dream this morning
i couldn't remember the whole thing
but what happened b4 i woke up
still keep replaying in my mind
it's so sick, so weird, so... unexplained
...the last scene...
i dreamed about this guy, and he's in my class!!
i don't really know him very well
i have NO idea why he appeared in my dream
anyway, i remembered the storyline of my dream
one guy, sicko, keeps raping some young men
and poor my classmate,
he's being raped by this freak on a deck of a ship in front of tons of ppl..(wtf?!) and i was downstairs, but i overheard what's happening
after a while, i went up
and i asked others, what happened to him..
they said, he's dead......
then i asked, did him kill himself or the freak killed him??
they answered, he chocked on his own SHIT and he died..
..............................the end..............................
hum...
what the fxxk... was the first thought i had after i woke up
and this aweful dream kept poping out the whole day
the weirdest part was when i saw this guy today..
i just couldn't see him in the eyes.. it made me wanna me puke
so, who can tell me why i dreamed this???
i know, not all dreams have meaning..
certainly hope this one has absolutely no meaning at all....
the whole thing's so weird so so weird
makes me feel like i'm going crazy, i'm a psycho
oh god....... what's happening to me.....
have no energy 4 school, dream about this crap
and btw, i skipped one class today..
first time this term, still felt like too early to do that
it has only been two weeks... unbelievable...
and i'm already feel like in hell
i really need some happy thoughts.....
jokes, anyone?? plz???
October 03 i love writing.. & oh well....just so u all know, 我並不是很閒才幾乎天天寫blog
it's because i love writing..
it can either be under pressure or i'm just high..
總而言之 寫東西很好玩
所以我喜歡看散文類的東西
因為可以啟發我寫東西的idea
或許會有人覺得那些書 沒營養
但對我而言 是我創作泉源
似乎對我的design career 沒有太大的幫助
oh well...
寫詩更好玩
曾經寫過一篇很好的 寫台灣的未來
title was "i'm waiting..."
寫的真的很不錯 還是用英文寫的
我美國高中的英文老師看了 還唸給全班聽
只可惜 我不知道丟哪了
而我人 又剛好不在現場
還扯到台灣啥時才會進到UN, etc..
我真的寫的很有感觸
雖然老師給的要求都沒followed...
oh well...
看了很多人的blog 真的覺得 大家文筆真的不錯
很喜歡看 很羨慕 不知道自己有沒有到那樣的level
i guess not...
其實很喜歡藤井樹的東西
很白話 但要有感情有意義有暗示的時候
形容的都超完美 真是太佩服了
大概就是 文學涵養很好吧
我要到何時才有這樣的功力
oh well...
回頭想想 自己似乎一直都滿喜歡寫東西
連研究詩詞曲調都很有興趣
當大家對古人的文學乏味時
我卻讀的津津有味 呵呵呵
可以用簡單幾個字 表達出一段話
有些還不是用白話就可以解釋出來的
成語就是完美的代表
真是太強了 中國文學 屌啊..
即使國文成績一直都不會太差
但是英文永遠beats it
oh well...
so, i go for english..
and art is my interest
i love illustrations drawings paintings
better than graphic design
but i still have to go through this stupd 2nd yr
then maybe i will change my major
study sth else...
doing work with my own hands
that's what inspires me the most
but for now,
i can only do the art/design work on computers
oh well...
ohohoh 今天收到一箱梨 and 一箱可樂 ha!
帥呆了!!!! 我的乾哥哥 真是太讚了!!!!!!
在這裡好好稱讚你一下 呵呵呵
當面講 我會不好意思 哈哈哈
我在想 我可以不提到他的名字到何時
not that i do't wanna mention
it's a challenge actually
知道嗎 正常人 講話寫字可以不用第一人稱
其實是很難的
要很努力去想 才可寫一篇都不用到我, 自己, i, me, etc.
(當初聽說很常用的人 很自私很自我)
so i wanna try
當然 不提到一個人的名字 應該不會很難
因為有代名詞 but still...
let's try how long i can hold this~
if one day i fail..
oh well...
bad habit killsokay.. so i was all prepared to write about my hell
then i realized i'm in a good mood today.. hahaha
sometimes i write better if i'm in bad mood..
too happy i forget all about the big words
so all u can see is normal blog... simple
since i'm in a good mood
maybe i can still talk about last nite
just as i described "emotional hell"
i couldn't control my emotion
i couldn't control my temper
so guess what? i cried and shouted
to someone that cared about me worried about me
so sorry so so sorry so so so sorry
so yeah, i stayed up til 4:30am
finally got my feeling back actually
not so bad after all
finally got the feeling of doing hw
going to school working on project
maybe that's why i'm feeling better now
now i can think stright
to figure out what happened last nite
juat as i always know
i don't use my time wisely
that's rite.. i'm a failure
bad habit kills
god i was so disappointed at myself last nite
almost cracked up
but i realized i still have a good 5hr sleep
so i simply went to bed
then i got up went to school
finished my presentation
and just like that, i forgot all about my failure
god i'm so naive so simple
huh... so maybe that's why i'm not successful
so at least i get the school spirit back
that's probably what i needed the most b4
still missing my breaktime
still missing my happytime
could this be it.. i can finally get my humor back!!?
hope so.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
plz laugh 4 me smile 4 me
just so u know 我有陽光般的笑容 u'r gonna love it!!
October 01 力不從心突然發現 跟朋友聊聊天真的對紓解心情and了解自己有一定的幫助
猛然了解 自己的down似乎是因為學校的事情
自己並沒有辦法專心在學業上
也可能為步調還沒調整好
總之是心態上的問題
開學就很容易這樣嗎 i know, at least i'm not the only one
應該一開始做project就會有不一樣的心情了
會有一種 "我在做事情"的心態
但那也是在做完全部的research之後的事了...
現在 還在倦怠期
還要 持續多久呢 天知道
再等等吧...
功課 還是要完成
god... so bored
i need some coke
ohohoh~ today
i went out w/ my dear big bro& his younger bro
very very fun... and the weather's nice too
too bad dm had to work...
anyway. watching them light up my day
i could finally get my smile back for this afternoon
so, i was in good mood, then i forgot to eat dinner
hahahahaha
and now, i have to finish my hw...
oh! btw, welcome October!!! September 30 big brotherokay.. so i'm a little down today...
don't know what happened..
maybe just lonely...
then i found out sth,which is kinda surprising..
but it feels nice.. haha
here's to my replacement brother:
hey, u
really great to know you, and thank god we live close
so even though i'm alone in this apartment
i know u r near me, that makes me feel safe
i have always lived in my little castle
never really get to see this world
now, i got u and my bf here
i think it's time.. or not.. haha~
i think i already said this in ur blog
but i have to put it in mine too.. and change a little!
u r a gift from my bro
i'm very greatful that u r in my life
u couldn't imagine how happy i was when i heard
u say i can call u anytime
at first, i thought r u just being nice, now i know,
u mean it.. u really do care.
now, i'm so happy..
even if u might boss me around
i will accept it cuz i know u care
even if u might bother me
i will welcome u cuz i enjoy ur company
it's good to have someone around
besides my bf.. u r probably the only person i'm close to
i know, we didn't really know each other that long or well
but i already feel close to u.. maybe it's the feeling i get from u
well, hope i'm not mistaken...
i think u r super nice and sweet(so far so good~)
it's nice to know someone like u
just hope we won't go against each other someday..
so, dear u, welcome, as a brother and a friend
and feel free to call me anytime too..
not a lot people call me,
i would really like to get some phone calls.. a public affairThere go the street lights, the night's officially on
I got the green light, to do what ever we want Gonna stand, outside, the box, and put the rules on hold Tonight Carte blanche, first class for the evening Ready, set, go All the girls stepping out for a public affair All night, that's right 'cause the party don't stop All the cameras come out for a public affair Who cares, let's rock, 'cause the party don't stop Hey Baby, I see you looking over here baby Are you gonna keep looking or get up? And talk to me Here's an opportunity that you don't wanna miss tonight Carte blanche, first class for the evening Ready, set, go All the girls stepping out for a public affair All night, that's right 'cause the party don't stop All the cameras come out for a public affair Who cares, let's rock, 'cause the party don't stop Do what you wanna do, tonight the world does not exist No, no, no Move how you wanna move, all my girls work it out, like this Give me room to shake, shake, shake All the girls stepping out for a public affair All night, that's right, 'cause the party don't stop All the cameras come out for a public affair Who cares, let's rock, 'cause the party don't stop September 27 gdfinally get into 2nd year of this stupid program
and it got me thinking.... and figured out sth
i know why i'm not a successful person..
not that i'm bad, just not... u know
can never learn how to use my time wisely
i guess this is my weakness
just hoping it won't always be like this
don't let bad habits destory u.. or me
i just don't know why i'm like this
just like a kid, can never wait to enjoy,
to play, to get out...
there r a lot of things i need and should know
b4 growing up...
maybe, now alone... i can learn, i can try
i can really know the world we're living in
truth hurts, hiding doesn't make it better
maybe it's time.. to come out and see
what i've been missing... maybe
maybe this real world sucks,
but will i love it??
do u??
September 25 nites最近 得到了一隻巨無霸大的polar bear
真的是 超可愛的
差一點 變成依靠
抱著他 就覺得滿足
軟軟的 很舒服
哥哥不在 自己一個人
說真的 還挺害怕的
要是又 聽到鬼故事
真是有夠 雪上加霜
tonite i think i can get somebody here
to make the nites less frightened.. maybe
fear comes form inside
courage and confidence r the keys
to defeat fear
but it's not that easy to find courage
and establish confidence
it takes time to get to the point
so.. for now, maybe it's easier
just find somebody to get through the nite
September 24 naïve天真的不得了 顯得有點呆 是好還是不好
如果就是這樣的人 是好還是不好
活在自己的小小世界 自己的城堡裡 是好還是不好
迷失在自己的原則中 不輕易走出 是好還是不好
說沒有心機 似乎又不是那麼一回事
不刻意強調自己 大智若愚 凡是隨性 開心就好
很愛笑 竟可以笑到讓人覺得尷尬
是掩飾還是自然 好像也不需要去探索
做自己 越來越容易
看別人 越來越輕鬆
有你在 一起看美景
這世界 還是很美好
看不透 人性是永遠的難題 人可以很瘋狂
悟不出 成熟的大道理 還是做自己最好
總有一天 可以嘗到 成熟那甜美的果實 freaking out nowokay school's starting tomorrow~ it's freaking me out now~
i have 2 face everything alone now, kinda scary, 4 me...
bro's in jp, dm's in tw... i'm here~huh...
really hope someone could b here w/ me
though not really someone i'm very close 2 b4, but yeah,
someone's here helping me, so thanks!!!!(u know who u r!)
heaven's above, i'm standing here facing up,
i can see ur face, i feel safe.. and i miss u. September 22 déjà vu
in translation- September 21 debutant
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